peace and joy

An amazing sense of peace came down on me while I was working last night. I realized I had panicked over a friends concern. I know I need to take care of myself better, but I just freaked out a little too much. I sat there with my tools, carving, and everything just seemed ok again. Not perfect and ignoring again, just a little more aware. And I'm still going to go see a doctor, just to make sure.

A nice night conversation tonight, on topics that varied from crazy and pissed off co-workers to the size of my waist. Random but nice. And it is chilly out, it being winter and all, and though today was warm, but dark it cools again. And we were standing there talking, in the dark, in the cold, and he took off his jacket and wrapped it around my legs to keep them warm. That right there was one of the most romantic gestures a man has done for me in a long time. I was filled with joy at that.

Today was a good day. I want to spread the peace and joy around, much in keeping with the theme of the season. But I'm definitely keeping part of it for myself, because I like this feeling.